Lately, I've Been Losing Sleep

"Never ignore a person who loves you, cares for you, and misses you. Because one day, you might wake up from your sleep and realize that you lost the moon while counting the stars." -Unknown

Lately, I have been losing sleep, but not regarding my infatuation or my quick fall-ins and fall-outs. It's all about the fact of my friends, and the problems they go through in their lives. I'm so concerned about everyone's well-being lately because I hear about all these health issues and all these financial issues going throughout the country and the area I live in. I wish to help, but know that I am unable to, and that kills me.
What kills me more, is the people who have injuries that cause them to be unable to play the sports they absolutely love. I feel such pain for these people, although I cannot relate directly. I give them all my love and support that they can at least recover some, if not all, of their physical strength.
It is through these trials in our lives that we find our true selves. We find out how we will react, and we find out who our true friends are. We find out that the Lord truly does care about so much more than we thought at first. We grow in ways that we would have never thought possible before. I mention this because I reflect on the post I saw on Facebook a couple of weeks ago, and the comments I made on it to help make a friend's mother feel better about herself and her injury.
Some of you may know who I speak of, but I leave her anonymous here, for the sake of privacy.

So, as most of you know by now, I'm going to prom with the the best girl I could've ever asked. Miss Katelyn Jones. :) Sweetest girl, and by far a good friend. :)
I'm nervous about this dance, because it's my first one! But heck, I'm going to try hard and make it memorable if it's the last thing I do! Ha, I'm still a bit unsure of what we're going to do for the day date, but hey, I've got some ideas! :D But yeah, it's a big deal for me and her.

Song-of-the-Day: Counting Stars by OneRepublic
I recently found this song by chance, and absolutely fell in love with it! Ha, I've always loved OneRepublic's music, but this new album sure takes the cake.

Shout-Outs-of-the-Day: Avelina Facer, William Facer, and Katelyn Jones

Abby: Hi mom. :) I just wanted to say I really appreciate you and all your love and help. You're the best mother in the world to me, and I'm so grateful for all your help with everything. I love you so much, and I'm proud to be called your son. :) Prom is going to be wonderful thanks to your help with my wardrobe, and because of all the things you've put together for me. I love you. :)

Bill: Hey dad. :) Thanks for everything, you know? I'm grateful that you give me so much, and that you care for my well-being and education. Thanks for all the cool gadgets, and all the help with different things throughout these years. You're the best dad a guy like me could ask for. I love you. :)

Katelyn: Hi Katelyn. :D Thanks for saying yes and making me one of the happiest guys in this school. You're amazing, and I am truly humbled that you would say yes to me. :) It may be my first school dance, but I'm going to put my heart and soul into making this night memorable for us both. So, just as a truth is, you're beautiful, really sweet, and such a great singer. I miss having you in Troylairs! Portland was a lot of fun, for sure! Ha, but anyways. Thanks, for everything. :)


So, thanks everyone for reading this! I hope you all have a wonderful last day of April, and a wonderful time with your loved ones.
AS ALWAYS, HAVE NICE DAY!

Letting A New Day Begin

"While I know myself as a creation of God, I am also obligated to realize and remember that everyone else and everything else are also God's creation." -Mary Angelou

So, for about the past week, I've been extra-stressed because of what's coming up soon. I'm 16, it's a dance, and it's boy's choice. I was waiting for the OK to ask my friend, Katelyn, and I finally got the OK on Friday of last week, so I spent the weekend preparing for what I think of as a very important and must-be-memorable thing.
My friend gave me the idea to use a whole Hershey's Kisses® bag and like drop them all on the ground and say something along the lines of, "Now that I've kissed the ground you walk on, will you go to Prom with me?"
It was originally my plan to do it that way, but then when I went to buy the Kisses®, I only found Hugs®. SO, I CHANGED IT AROUND! Ha, I had a little box, filled it with 10 Hugs®, and made a note with it. During lunch, I walked over, and handed it to her, and then walked a very short distance away. The ending line was something along the lines of "If the answer is yes, give me a big hug." I was all nervous, but then she got up and gave me a big hug and said yes. I was SO happy inside, and I still am. It's my first high-school dance, and my first Prom. I'm just so happy! Happiest I have been for a while! I'm so stoked, and nervous about it still.
Either way, we're going to have the most fun we can, and just do what's right! Ha, I know we'll find a good, modest group and just live our standards on a big night of our high school lives.

Song-of-the-Day: I Remember by Deadmau5

Shout-Out-of-the-Day: Katelyn Jones
You're just amazing. I've known you for a couple of years now, and I've been able to see you sort of grow as a young, independent, beautiful and strong woman. I can honestly say, that you have a wonderful voice, and that I miss having you in our Choir class. I know I'd sure love to see you join us again for Graduation or something. I sure hope that everything goes right and that I can make Prom a memorable night for you! We need to coordinate our colors and everything very soon so you can pick out your dress and everything! I know this must be so exciting but also stressful for you too, but believe me, I'll help you all that I can.


So, thank you all for taking the time to read this. It means a lot, and I'm sorry I haven't had many posts lately.
AS ALWAYS HAVE NICE DAY!

Gentleman

"A real gentleman, even if he loses everything he owns, must show no emotion. Money must be so far beneath a gentleman that it is hardly worth troubling about." -Fyodor Dostoevsky

To stand idly by and submit yourself to the stereotypes of modern day society is an act of complete ignorance. Insomuch, that it just makes everyone have a lesser opinion of you and not want to associate themselves with such. Detract yourself from the everyday temptations and keep yourself always worthy for those times in your life that will be most important for your future. If we prepare ourselves now, we will be much farther ahead than the adversary's power than we would be if we succumbed to the modern temptations.

I had to say this because of this new song that became public a little over a week ago, and it's hit over 200 million views on YouTube already. Despite the song's title and how catchy it is, the video exemplifies the exact opposite of being a gentleman. Sure, I like the song, but the actions performed in the video push me away. I don't like people who mistreat women and stuff like that.
I tie this into that Elementary school attitude that some of the teenagers of nowadays carry. It kills me inside, slowly, but surely. The whole, "Oh, if he hits me, it means he likes me." NO, JUST NO. It does NOT mean he likes you, at all. It's a sign of a bad relationship.

I've been thinking a lot about this lately, because we had a speaker come over about Teen Dating Abuse. All these bad signs, all these things that are so prevalent in the halls of your average high school. I never really noticed them in great detail before, but ever since that speaker came, it's been killing me to see it all so clearly now. It's one of those things that you just pass off as the "norm" around the school. I want for people to watch what they do, and think about it seriously... Is it a sign of a healthy relationship?

Songs-of-the-Day:
Gentleman by Psy
Raise Your Weapon by Deadmau5

Shout-Out-of-the-Day: Rebekah Phillips
Been a while since I gave you a solemn shout-out, eh? I mean, you're my sister-site, and I haven't really given you a proper thank you for all the back up you've given me over the past two years. You are such a kind and beautiful young spirit. You have so much potential, and I really see you going farther in life than almost anyone I know. I've loved being able to see your testimony grow, and you mature more as a youth these past months. I can say I love you, but maybe with a different sort of meaning, I guess. :) You're an amazing singer, an amazing designer, and a great caretaker. Never let these memories die... because that will always be one thing that will hold our friendship to eternity. We seriously need to get together and hang out with each other sometime, and catch up with what's been going on lately. We haven't talked as often, and I really do need to be the one who starts these conversations, because I really do care about them, but don't show it as much... I have to thank you for making me a brony, and for introducing me to so many wonderful things in this world that I would have never seen before. I remember a few posts ago, you posted a particular picture that I thought was cute, and I just have to reshare it. :) Dashie and Soarin. Or maybe, you and Dawson. You guys fly so high, and it's adorable. <3 Please don't get too stressed about testing and everything else. I'm taking tests too, and with Prom coming up, I'm rather stressed. But today I took my first ISAT, and passed with Advanced scoring. :) I was happy, but I relaxed when I took the test.
Now, I'm not going to go much farther on here, for the sake of not sounding too obsessive or something... I'll leave this with a simple, I love you, sister. Take care, and wish that big lug of a brother of yours a happy mission for me, please?




Thank you all for sticking with me through my darkness and through my light, and through my obsessive parts...
AS ALWAYS, HAVE NICE DAY!

Laughs the Loudest

"How do you sleep while the rest of us cry? How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye?" -P!nk

 Sometimes you just have to put on this smile, this... shell of happiness that just makes everyone believe you're really happy, when in reality, you're not. There will come a time in all of our lives where for a prolonged period of time, you will ride through the lowest and bumpiest part you've ever experienced. I'm not one of the best people to ever explain how life can be, but I can sure give you my two cents of how life has been for me, and for how it will turn out.

First: How Life Can Be

Life can be a ruthless and unforgiving enemy. It sometimes likes to throw obstacles right into our playing field, and make us reroute our energy into trying to maneuver around these obstacles and it can sometimes make us crash ourselves straight into the brick limits of our own minds. We may not think we have any limits to our minds at this time in our lives, but they are there, and they are very prevalent to failure.
Life is God's gift to us, and we are here to be tested. These "curveballs" are just one of his many ways of testing our faith and our strength. If we can move these "walls" that much farther back, we'll become a better person overall. With a stronger mind, a stronger belief, and a stronger resistance to the temptations of the adversary.

Second: How Life Has Been For Me
More often lately than I'm used to, things have been going downhill. Sure, I keep whining about this, and sure I'm probably overreacting to how it's all going because everyone deals with things like this, and worse. I may not have the hardest life, but it's the hardest I've ever gone through. A quote I'm unsure of who said it is, "This too shall pass." Everything within the past week has gone much more smoothly. Sure, I've been friend-zoned a lot more, but I've grown used to it. I shall be patient with it, and find that one girl in this accursed town who is faithful and won't drop me like nothing. I'm sick and tired of seeing these people around the school who... cheat on others, who... have those week-long relationships. I've been a part of them, and I'm sick of it. Sorry, I... need to get over that, I guess. It's just hard for me.

Third: How It Will Turn Out

Life, as I've already said, is a test for us. If we can persevere through everything that we have "thrown" at us, then we will earn a righteous place in heaven where we can be closer to our Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. As we grow through these, we may find ourselves in places we never could have imagined. Believe in yourself, and believe in the strength that Christ will give you. He will bring you through it all, and farther. He loves you, and His father loves you. I give you my testimony of this.

Song-of-the-Day: Sober by P!nk

Shout-Outs-of-the-Day: Taylor Hively, Katelyn Jones, Adrianna Foster, Sean Foster, Marc Alejos, Wyatt Thorson, Troy Amelotte, Val Degtyarev, Kevin Woof, Corey Robinson, Jimmy, Steve, Steven, Mike, Phire, Nate Tested, Liam Joseph, Jake, Jacob, Evan, Cole, Cat, Luke Nguyen, Aaron Koo, and Spencer Clauson

Taylor: My good sir! I'm glad you decided to make your Facebook again, after what you went through. I'm definitely coming on Friday. :) I don't have anything more important right now, nor will I probably find something more important. You, my friend, are important to me. :)

Katelyn: Can I be honest? You're very beautiful, and you have such a great personality. I absolutely love your smile. :) Call me maybe? Ha, you don't have to, unless you want to. I was kind of kidding, because nearly no one calls me anymore. You're so sweet to everyone, and I must admit we've become MUCH better friends over this school year. I remember Portland Trip and everything. It was so much fun! Ha, well... be safe?

Adrianna: Thanks for giving me your opinion on everything I ask about! You're such a great friend to me, and I would love if we could play piano together? (: I think we could do well!

Sean: KARTHUS! xD I think you and are rather closer than we were when I first started HaZe. Ever since the whole Duper thing, I respect you more, and I think you generally respect me a little more.

Marc: Gosh dang it, Marc. Stop nodusing every joke we make. xD Ha, just kidding. I love how your step-mom designs clothes, so you get to see models all the time. At least we have a mutual "respect" for each other, right? :D

Wyatt Thorson: Hello, good sir. Ha, thanks for always complimenting me when I'm down, or when it's just been a crappy day. I appreciate those 7 ores you gave me one time, because I got 16 diamonds out of them! I was like, YEAH! Ha, I don't have much, but I really appreciate your help.

Troy Amelotte: Hey Skater! Ha, glad to see that I've somehow... come back up in your standings since you guys promoted me to officer recently. I'm so glad to be back! It's so much fun, regardless of the annoyances we encounter occasionally.

Val Degtyarev: RUSSIAN!! Я собираюсь оставить вас ваше сообщение на русском языке, потому что я могу, и это весело! Ха, я люблю, как вы помогли мне так много и все мои основные версии. Ты отлично владельца, и я ценю ваше руководство к нам новички.

Kevin Woof: So, Rescue. How do you feel about Woof Town being back in business? I know I'm super excited! :D I get my dope house back, and I get all my enchants back! :D

Corey Robinson: Corey, I may not know you too well, but you've always been nice to me and I really appreciate you. :D

Jimmy: Bubu! Ha, we've had our fair share of laughs here and there, eh? You don't get on too often, what happened good sir? Message me!

Steve: Ah, my good English sir. I bid thee a good day! Ha, how are you? I enjoy our OMGPOP binges every few days. Those are so much fun, I have to admit.

Steven: Now it's on to the newly-not-so-immature Steven. The one who suddenly came out and told us that he was sorry for being so randomly immature to us. I appreciate you, no matter how much you get on my nerves. I appreciate all staff, as long as they don't whine about their jobs being hard.

Mike: I got cake. You jelly, Purp? Hmm, you're not half bad at CoD, good sir. But you are really good at MineCraft and LoL from what I've heard.

Phire: One of the staff that genuinely tries to be nice to me on a consistent basis. I appreciate you Phire and your intelligence.

Nate Tested: Haven't Skyped with you in few weeks man, you doing okay? We don't see on too much either! I miss our karaoke parties! Those were a lot of fun, even if we couldn't see you rack up some points!

Liam Joseph: Well, Daft. You're a really chill guy, and I really appreciate your help with all of us officers. You're appreciated by a good chunk of the staff.

Jake: Jgeil! I don't talk to you as much as I used too, and that sucks! I remember when you and I were both banned on the old server. I miss our sharing of houses and stuff. Let's start talking again?

Jacob: Mr. Drendalf, sir. I love how we both like Lindsey Stirling's music, and how you asked me questions that one day. It totally made me feel better.

Evan: You can sometimes be an annoyance, and you can sometimes be a cool person, but most of all you're staff and I appreciate you. #SOCKS

Cole: Scooby! Ha, Mod+ PvP team, eh? Marc kind of added me in, even if I'm not a mod, but hey! I'M NOT BAD!

Cat: You're so nice to me! Ha, I love how when everyone is being jerks to people, you tend to stand up and be nice to them! :D

Luke Nguyen: Reupho. :D Ha, I remember when you were just a member, and when you built the Sky Temple in Silverwood... I miss that town bro. THEM FEELS.

Aaron Koo: Yoshi! Ha, I love that your name is Yoshi! I wouldn't have actually guessed how nice you are... but you're a very nice person. And I'm glad you're staff!

Spencer Clauson: Aorac, a faithful staff. We don't know each other too well, but hey, let's change that?

Ha, this the most shout-outs I've ever done? Maybe! But these are all different friends, and fellow members of a game I play.
AS ALWAYS, HAVE NICE DAY!